Saturday, May 31, 2008


My first doctor's appointment isn't until June 13th. I called right after the positive test and they said that my OB/Gyn doesn't see people until 8 weeks. I guess because there's nothing to "see" - or maybe because of they high percentage of miscarriage prior? Anyway - by the time I see her, I'll be at 9 weeks - almost 10! I don't quite know what to expect...questions, tests, etc. It will be strange, but I'm really looking forward to it as I hesitate to tell more than a few people until at least I've had my first appointment. I'd like to wait to tell most people until 12/13 weeks. That seems smart anyway. I've told my parents + brother - only because we were visiting them at 5 weeks and I don't see them very often, 2 of my best friends, and that's it. My husband has told 2 of his best friends, and 3 acquaintances. That's what's annoying...telling people you aren't that close with. I guess I don't really care, I understands that he wants to talk about it, but I am being careful about who I tell for now. I need a medical professional to tell me that yes, there is a healthy baby growing inside of you! Yay!

Thursday, May 29, 2008


At 6+ weeks, I expect that maybe the nausea will start soon, but maybe i've been reading my book too profusely and believe that I SHOULD be nauseous. I don't really know, but yesterday I had a hell of a bout. I had cereal and a banana for breakfast, then for lunch I had delicious carrot ginger soup, that when I finished I declared as "possibly the best soup I've ever had". Then I took my prenatal vitamin, and then i got horribly nauseous. I thought that since I had taken it after I ate, that I would be fine, and in fact it's never made me sick before. The only time I've ever felt woozy from a vitamin was when I took one first thing in the morning on an empty stomach. Anyway, yesterday the nausea lasted about an hour and during that hour I sat at my desk, tried to not look ill, and went to the bathroom twice thinking I might puke, but I didn't. I also sat there wondering how I could possibly get through 6 weeks or more feeling this bad. I managed to eat some more food later in the day and felt better. Then, this morning, I got up to go pee and felt like a drunken sailor...a little dizzy. Then I didn't want to get out of bed for fear of more dizziness. I managed to eventually get up, and immediately had some cereal and a shower. I took it easy and I was slow, but I wonder if this is psychosomatic, or real. It's SO hard to tell, since being pregnant is on my mind 100% of the time. Does pregnancy nausea come in waves or does it just stay? Anyway - today I got a LOT of food for lunch, nothing acidic and lots of bread products and a preemptive gingerale. I feel fine so far, but when I get home I will take my prenatal vitamin after I eat and see how I feel.
UPDATE>>> I took my vitamin just after I ate, and felt just fine! I had rice, hummus and tabbouleh for dinner! Yay!

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Black Olives

Black olives have always been one my favorite food items ever. There are many photos of me at childhood family gatherings with black olives on each of my little fingers. I would wave them around and then eat them one by one. I would be happy to eat just olives for dinner. They are little delicious balls of salt. However> a couple of weeks ago, I ordered a salad for lunch at work, and asked for black olives in it.....along with another obsession, bacon - but I'll save that tale for another time. Anyway, the olives were horrible. I chalked it up to a bad batch of olives at the salad place and didn't think anything of it until yesterday, when I got a subway sandwich for lunch which I requested olives on. I ate the sandwich, and thought that something in it tasted funny. Was it the bread? nope. The pickles? nope. It was the damn olives. They tasted like little rubber pellets. Argh. I think the love I have for one of my favorite foods has been changed by this alien inside of me. Next thing you know, I'll be eating a tomato! PS> i HATE tomatoes.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

About all this....

I'm 36 and I'm about 6 weeks pregnant with my first child. My husband knows, my best friend knows and my parents know. He told 2 friends + 3 acquaintances. I haven't been on the pill for ages, so we weren't not trying, but we weren't really trying either. We just figured if it happened it happened, and we would deal with it. So here we are....coming to terms with being parents. I am hoping I don't miscarry, and he wants to tell everyone about it. I don't. We fight about that a few times a week.

I missed my period, but thought it was coming, as I had a few days of implantation bleeding. I wore a tampon, my boobs hurt, all PMS. But NO.....! My period never came, and my booms remained sore, and I had some very minor cramps. Now when I get my period, my cramps are horrible, and it's very heavy so I knew something was up. I had been talking about this to my best friend, telling her I felt weird, and my period was weird and she said I should go to the doctor. I figured there was no point in that. Either I would get my period and that would be that, or I wouldn't and I would be pregnant. That day, I spoke with my husband and told him my suspicions. He asked if I wanted him to buy me a pregnancy test and I said (with some hemming and hawing) YES.

I got home, relaxed, watched some TV and was sort of putting it off. I figured there was no way! Well, 20 percent of me thought that and 80% thought I was indeed pregnant, but I was blocking that 80% out. Not that it would be such a band thing, it would just be a shocker. So I was talking to my best friend on the phone, and said before I hung up "fuck it, I'm just going to take the damn test and get this over with". I hung up, peed on the stick and BLAM. + sign. My husband came in and saw what I was doing, and that I had already done it, and I knew + meant pregnant, and he didn't - so he took the instructions away and came back seconds later and we both started laughing. The test came with 3 tests, so I took the 2nd one too - this one was digital. It immediately said "pregnant" - no doubt about that! He peed on the 3rd one as a control. HAHA! So it's been a few weeks since then, and we're settling into the idea of this. My first doctor's appt isn't for about 2 weeks, so it doesn't quite seem real until a professional tells me yes, there is something growing inside of you. So hopefully that will be a fine appointment and all will be well. Anyway - I have much more to say about my first weeks of pregnancy, so more soon!

PS> Yes, that is the actual photo from my actual pregnancy test!

blogging about babies

I never thought this would be something I would do, and once this blog becomes safe (ie: once I've hit 3 months) to tell people about, my friends would likely agree. Anyway - welcome. I'm very newly pregnant and I am keeping it a big secret from 99% of my friends, so I have no one to talk to about it. I am going to talk to strangers. That is you. Enjoy.